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You know, I think for the longest time, I was just waiting to find somebody I loved as much as I loved you. I realize that's not gonna happen, you know. You were my first love
—Dawson, to Joey

Promicide is the 20th episode of Season 4 of Dawson's Creek.


SENIOR PROM — Pacey (Joshua Jackson) feels out of place at the prom and lets out his frustrations about life on Joey (Katie Holmes). Gretchen (Sasha Alexander) and Dawson (James Van Der Beek) discuss the future of their relationship. Jen (Michelle Williams), is reeling from her recent confrontation with her father and plans to get drunk. Jack (Kerr Smith) and Tobey (David Monahan) attend together with coaxing from Jen.


James Van Der Beek as Dawson Leery
Katie Holmes as Joey Potter
Michelle Williams as Jen Lindley
Joshua Jackson as Pacey Witter
Kerr Smith as Jack McPhee
Mary-Margaret Humes as Gale Leery
John Wesley Shipp as Mitch Leery
Nina Repeta as Bessie Potter

Special Guest Stars

Sasha Alexander as Gretchen Witter
Mark Matkevich as Drue Valentine
David Monahan as Tobey Barrett


I don't think I'll ever love anyone the way that I loved you, either. And that's a good and a bad thing
—Joey to Dawson
I'm at the prom, Pacey. I'm at the prom again. I mean, I graduated four years ago and I'm still here. You know, tonight for the first time, I didn't just feel older than Dawson, I felt old. Too old to be here. Too old to be doing what I'm doing
—Gretchen to Pacey
You know what? It's the strangest thing, but ever since I got back from that trip with Doug, I've been feeling...really angry. But not angry at myself. It's actually worse than that. I've been feeling really angry at Joey. And I don't know why I'm angry at Joey. And that makes me feel guilty, and then the guiltier that I feel, the angrier I get, and I still don't know what to do about it
You know what I actually realized when I saw the two of you dancing there together? That is the happiest I have seen you all night. I mean, I think it's actually the happiest I've seen you in weeks. You want to know what's worse than that? I don't care. I saw the two of you dancing together, and I just don't care. I'm not angry. I'm not jealous. I'm not upset. I'm really not much of anything
—Pacey after seeing Dawson and Joey
You know...last year...I felt like I could give you something that no one else could give you. I could give you that wall to paint your mural on. I could take you away on a sailboat for a summer. I could even give you that night in the ski lodge. But I don't feel like I have anything left to give you now, Jo. I guess I'm spent. I've become a man who hates himself so much he can't even look at his own reflection in the mirror, and I wish that I could tell you that being with you doesn't make that worse, but it does... because the more that you love me in spite of that, the angrier that I get at you... and the more that I stop loving you back
—Pacey to Joey
You've spent your entire life trying to get out of Capeside, Joey, because you felt like you deserved better. Well, I am Capeside. That's why I didn't get out and you did, and you do deserve better. You deserve better than this place, and you deserve better than me
—Pacey to Joey


  • Pacey breaks up with Joey at prom, loudly and in front of everyone.
  • Gretchen breaks up with Dawson as she says that she had to move on with her life.
  • Jack admits he has feelings for Tobey and the two kiss.


  • In 2001, Kerr Smith didn't practice allyship with this comment on the Tobey/Jack kiss.
It’s not the most fun thing in the world, but I agreed to play this role, and [producer] Greg Berlanti does want to take it that far. That’s as far as I’m going to take it. I don’t think teenagers need to see two guys kissing on a weekly basis
—Kerr Smith[1]


you're an ocean | FASTBALL
prom dresses and tuxedos
i've changed (alternate version) | JOSH JOPLIN GROUP
at the market
ruby's gone | EVA TROUT
dawson and gretchen arrive at prom
talk show | DIG DEEPER
pacey and joey talk
sundrop | EGO
drue watches out for drunk jen
roses around my feet | TISH HINOJOSA
dawson checks on joey
when we collide | K.D. LANG
tobey asks jack to dance; pacey sees dawson and joey dance
wonderful thing | VAGABOND LOVERS
pacey interrupts dawson and joey and starts yelling at joey
aftershocks | MARY BETH MAZIARZ
dawson comforts joey; drue saves jen from falling overboard
20one | SID SIX
gretchen and pacey talk
take my hand | DIDO
jack and tobey kiss
gretchen breaks up with dawson



A gay kiss heats up "Dawson's Creek" (ENTERTAINMENT WEEKLY • MAY 2001)

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